Monday, January 29, 2007

It has been a while, since I last blogged.
Within a short span of 29 days into the year, my life is kinda chaotic!
I have been thinking quite a bit these few days...
Truthfully speaking, there was something bugging me since last year. I have thought about it frequently, however I failed to mention it to anyone and recently I have been thinking about it everyday. It has something to with what I had decided to commit to, slightly a year ago.
Lonely is the best word to describe what I feel most of the time. I used to feel happy to go there, but now I dread going in through the door. I tried to pretend that everything was alright, but it was just an illusion I created. I feel so uncomfortable hanging out with all of you. It is like you all are the populars in the school and only people you deem worthy of, are able to hang out with you guys. You may ask why am I hanging out with them in the first place. The simple reason is that my friends are in there! I don't hate them seriously. It is just that we don't click.
The place gives me the feeling that I am not welcome...
I have thought of just leaving it, however there is still part of me that is unable to let go.
I did not and will not regret my decision that I had made. Cause within the past year, I have leant a lot. Some of you may know what I am talking about. If I happened to have hurt your feelings, I am so sorry, it was not my intention. I guess the dam within me just broke, and the water had to flow somewhere.
Lord, I just want to ask for your guidance and that you will help me in my decision...

Oh wells Edith, my entry is just as emo as yours! haha (:
maybe the stress is getting onto me... Especially since exams are round the corner! I thought u wanted to study together tonight! What happened?!?! haha
Anyways I am going to turn in early today! So that I can wake up early tmr to mug for exams! (:
x twin stars is wasting her time at 10:44 PM x

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